Countdown to their disappointment

Want to know what I've decided. If you expect things from people, they are probably just going to let you down. That's why I've decided that I'm just not going to care. I'm not going to get angry over things, and if I do I won't let people know. It's just easier this way. I can get angry over some pretty stupid things, and it's just, I don't know. Some people say things that just sometimes set me off when I tell them certain stuff that I don't want to hear from them. If you just let things go, you can't be set up for their disappointment. And that's what I am. A countdown to everyone's disappointment. I can screw up the simpilest of things, and it just isn't worth it to care, or get upset.

Note to self: Just Breathe

It's just one of those days. Everything is going wrong again. Me and Megan are still fighting. Me and Tess I think are now fighting. I still want to be friends with Tess, but she isn't texting me back. Megan, I'm not really sure I want to be friends with. But Mikaela wants us to be a fivesome again, and I want her to be happy. My weakness is trying to make my friends happy all of the time.
With Megan, I know the only reason she's even still trying to talk to me is because Mikaela talked her into it, and Megan still believes that this will just blow over, like she always thinks with fights. She doesn't even really care who hates her and who doesn't. She thinks that everything will just constantly blow over, and everyone will forget everything the next day. God, does she not realize that a lot of fights won't ever just blow over. They won't just go away. She doesn't even really care when her best friends are mad at her, which is horrible. She never confronts people, which she has to learn to do if she wants to be friends with some people ever again.
But it's one of those days, where everything is falling apart, and you want to scream, and yell, and cry, and just break things and break people. I have these days alot. I am constantly reminding myself to just breathe. Breathe, and let yourself calm down before you do something really stupid that you will probably regret later. But it's hard sometimes. Especially when you're really angry at everyone, and you just want to scream and break things. They want to try and help but you're just like Fuck off. I don't want your help. Let me be alone and figure out things for myself. But you just hav e to remind yourself to breathe. that things will come together sooner or later.
It's hard. But you just gotta breathe.

funny life

Well, life's version today is funny. Once again, everything is going wrong, and it's just hilarious. Still in a fight with my ex-best friend, and now my other friend hates me because I told our other friends she was cutting. Now she going to be pissed. I haven't seen my father yet, AKA the evil one. He's just being completely stupid. Me and Mikaela are having fun, just doing nothing and looking at pictures.
HAVE A FUNNY LIFE!!!!

your view

What do you guys think about life? do you think that someone is planning everything we do? that would be really weird. Having someone plan exactly what we are going to do and say every single day. I couldn't image that much planning. I can barely even think past tomorrow. I think that we should all be able to have the kind of life we want. One where we can afford what we want, and one where we can go where we want. I would go to Australia and Rome and Greece, and a ton of other places. I make up a ton of stories in my head on how I really want my life to be. They have things that would never in a million years happen, especially to me and especially not here.

life, and other versions of it

I'm not sure one my view of life. So far, it's been pretty sucky. I'm in a fight with one of my friends, who I'm not sure I want to be friends with anymore, and my family is just icky. The other day I just burst out laughing, because everything was going wrong, and it was just completely hilarious. I was fighting with my friend, and wasn't (aren't) sure if we are ever going to be friends again. My friend Mikaela got asked out by this guy who she would never go out with. She just doesn't want a boyfriend and he spelt her name wrong (she HATES it when people spell her name wrong) and it was just funny. I wasn't sure if I was laughing just because everything was going wrong, or because we were working with radiation in science class.
It was just one of those days. Where everything was going wrong, and it a twisted way it was just completely funny. what do you think of those days?