Note to self: Just Breathe

It's just one of those days. Everything is going wrong again. Me and Megan are still fighting. Me and Tess I think are now fighting. I still want to be friends with Tess, but she isn't texting me back. Megan, I'm not really sure I want to be friends with. But Mikaela wants us to be a fivesome again, and I want her to be happy. My weakness is trying to make my friends happy all of the time.
With Megan, I know the only reason she's even still trying to talk to me is because Mikaela talked her into it, and Megan still believes that this will just blow over, like she always thinks with fights. She doesn't even really care who hates her and who doesn't. She thinks that everything will just constantly blow over, and everyone will forget everything the next day. God, does she not realize that a lot of fights won't ever just blow over. They won't just go away. She doesn't even really care when her best friends are mad at her, which is horrible. She never confronts people, which she has to learn to do if she wants to be friends with some people ever again.
But it's one of those days, where everything is falling apart, and you want to scream, and yell, and cry, and just break things and break people. I have these days alot. I am constantly reminding myself to just breathe. Breathe, and let yourself calm down before you do something really stupid that you will probably regret later. But it's hard sometimes. Especially when you're really angry at everyone, and you just want to scream and break things. They want to try and help but you're just like Fuck off. I don't want your help. Let me be alone and figure out things for myself. But you just hav e to remind yourself to breathe. that things will come together sooner or later.
It's hard. But you just gotta breathe.